Exhaustion

Do you ever feel so tired that the only thing that matters to you is sleeping? I’m at that point lately- I have had a change of schedule that has led me to have this type of exhaustion. Now, I’m not talking about being tired or just sleepy- I’m so tired that I can’t wake up in the morning and I only want to sleep throughout my entire day. I have tried changing up the schedule by sleeping more or just sleeping exactly seven or eight hours, but nothing seems to work. I would always wake up when the alarm went off and I would usually feel pretty good about mid-day, but lately I have to sleep and extra ten or fifteen minutes after the alarm just to get the power to wake up. I feel so sluggish and tired that I can barely even find the energy to care about anything. I just want to sleep and since I work a full six days a week- that is just simply not an option. My days of coffee drinks and sweet teas are officially over and I take vitamins every single day, but nothing seems to work. It’s not really that I feel bad, but just so tired- when I sleep, I sleep hard. I hate this feeling and well I have had it for a couple of months now and it just won’t go away. I’m planning to go to the doctor to see what it could be other than what I’m sure he will say “diet, exercise, routine…blah, blah, blah.” I’m working on changing all of this, but like everything else I just don’t feel up to it or feel like I have the time. I keep writing about time, because I feel that time is the real enemy. Our idea of time doesn’t allow us to feel like we can ever stop accomplishing what we need to. I’m not sure, even that statement seems like a ball of neuroses thought of yet another skittish kid. I really could just crawl in a box and sleep for days- just a nice quite space is what I need.