Critical Change Study

I guess in many ways you can call this month the “rebirth” as I have gotten a new job, no longer go to school, and started thinking what comes next. I love that everything is slowly falling into place as I move on and learn more than I have in the last two years. I enjoy the new routine, but I have to admit that I do ask myself “What does it all mean?” I guess like every other twenty something with little to no direction you try to wonder why we do all the things we do. In the end, is it just to live the life you wanted? Making your own dreams come true is like a giant race with time. Time is always against us as we try for bigger and better things. I decided a few months ago to start my own small business to get a sense of what it is like to have something that I can truly call my own. It’s slowly getting ready for a premiere launch and like most “kids” who have never had their own business- I tend to see a lot of gray area as far as how to actually run the business. There is so much to learn from the legality of the work to how a client list grows. All these things that don’t seem to have very clear answers. While that is a side project I am working a full time job in television five days a week and I’m enjoying the change of pace. I also work my hotel gig one day a week for extra cash that I can use towards my business. All these things have made for a pretty jam packed month, but I’m constantly looking for the next thing and where it leads next. I’m really not a live in the moment kind of person and I think it’s funny that many people want to do more of that- I can’t sit and wait- no one can really, who is trying to fulfill so much in so little amount of time. I work diligently to get ahead and try even harder to find outlets that allow for creativity. I think that is what I want most from a career, somewhere I can have the creative voice that can lead to a great vision. Life at times feels so tumultuous yet mundane that you may forget that the reason anything matters is because we need it to.

-EC