Do you ever feel so tired that the only thing that matters to you is sleeping? I’m at that point lately- I have had a change of schedule that has led me to have this type of exhaustion. Now, I’m not talking about being tired or just sleepy- I’m so tired that I can’t wake up in the morning and I only want to sleep throughout my entire day. I have tried changing up the schedule by sleeping more or just sleeping exactly seven or eight hours, but nothing seems to work. I would always wake up when the alarm went off and I would usually feel pretty good about mid-day, but lately I have to sleep and extra ten or fifteen minutes after the alarm just to get the power to wake up. I feel so sluggish and tired that I can barely even find the energy to care about anything. I just want to sleep and since I work a full six days a week- that is just simply not an option. My days of coffee drinks and sweet teas are officially over and I take vitamins every single day, but nothing seems to work. It’s not really that I feel bad, but just so tired- when I sleep, I sleep hard. I hate this feeling and well I have had it for a couple of months now and it just won’t go away. I’m planning to go to the doctor to see what it could be other than what I’m sure he will say “diet, exercise, routine…blah, blah, blah.” I’m working on changing all of this, but like everything else I just don’t feel up to it or feel like I have the time. I keep writing about time, because I feel that time is the real enemy. Our idea of time doesn’t allow us to feel like we can ever stop accomplishing what we need to. I’m not sure, even that statement seems like a ball of neuroses thought of yet another skittish kid. I really could just crawl in a box and sleep for days- just a nice quite space is what I need.

EC Media Works is quickly becoming my own little adventure into start-ups for dummies. I have been researching the blogosphere looking for as many examples of what kind of business is just like mine. Now, I will admit that there are a ton of businesses that essentially are trying to do what I want to do, but I think that maybe- just maybe, I might have the right attitude to pull it off. I love social media and I want my company to encompass the social spectrum as it pertains to marketing (Isn’t everyone trying to sell something?) and virtual assisting. I think we have barely started to understand how social media can bring in revenue and connect a company with their consumers on a truly human level, allowing their products to be part of people’s lives in ways they may have never truly understood. People love their options when it comes to buying things and simply they want a reliable, well priced, and quality product that will keep on delivering what they expect it to. I think as a marketer you have to find the “voice” of your product and how it relates or even if it relates to the people you are trying to sell it to. Not every product is made for every person and it shouldn’t be marketed that way. Essentially I want EC Media Works to stand for a quality relationship business between companies and their customers. I’m in the baby stages of this though and right now it is roughly just a small idea getting stronger each day. The website will be launching soon with many neat integrated social media platforms as well as a full range of services that I can offer including some third party contracting plans that allow for not only marketing help, but also design help. I feel really great about this idea and I hope that I do this better than other random business ideas I have had over the years.

An idea on the rise over looking a future so promising

I can smell your warmth and sweetness.

I can sense your longing for me while you weep.

I can read your mood with every breath you take.

I can long for your taste.

I can see what you need.

I can see what you want.

I can feel my mouth upon your skin.

I can graze my lips down your arms.

I can want.

I want to kiss you in a subtle way.

I want to open your eyes.

I want you to see your life again.

I want a morsel.

I want to taste.

I want to be.

I am your one true love.

I am Vampire.

Here is a little questionnaire that was borrowed from Megan  that I decided to fill out as well….

1. When you are on a plane and the kid behind you is kicking your seat, what do you do?
I don’t know how I would react to some kid going crazy and kicking the back of my seat. I probably would just tell them to stop in a kind way (or just complain so much to the flight attendant that they are forced to move me to first class!).

2. What food that you KNOW is bad for you and you shouldn’t have, but you love/eat it anyway?
This would definitely be my love of chicken wings. I love spicy food and I think wings contain something like 500 calories a serving!  I also love Frapps from Starbucks which are like little buckets of sugar and fat, but make you feel so good.

3. What is your favorite book of all time?
The Jungle by Upton Sinclair is the book that changed everything for me. I read it for AP History in High school and was just blown away by how graphic and sad it was. The quasi political messages had some deep impact for its time and the book is simply amazing. For a children’s book I would have to go with Where The Wild Things Are, because of how beautifully illustrated it is.  There is a copy of this book that sits in my bookcase to this day.

4. If I came to visit you in your town, where would we eat?
I love how diverse Chattanooga is for such a small city, but I would for sure take you to Easy a beautifully styled restaurant with a limited, but great menu selection. Its seafood elegantly delivered without a huge price tag. The Jumbo shrimp pasta in light truffle oil is a standout.

5. You have 500 dollars and 40 minutes to spend it at any store you want. Where do you go?
I go to Target and buy some clothes and some electronics and some music.  I would defiantly break open those glass cases and grab me a new ipod and e-reader, though I think that would already be more than $500.00

6. What blog do you read every day/the most often?
I love the popwatch blog over at ew.com and also love reading the reviews at the avclub.com which are both must reads for pop-culture connoisseurs. I also love the entertainment section over at Salon.com as well.

7. What’s the longest you’ve ever been stuck at an airport?
I think like thirty minutes, but really who counts anymore..lol.

8. What’s your daily makeup/face/cleansing routine?
I clean my face twice a day…now that is an odd question.

9. Where is your farthest away friend?
I believe that would be L.A. and I miss her very much!

10. Where is your favorite place to go hiking (or to enjoy nature)?
In Chattanooga on Lookout Mountain which has the best views of the city up in Rock City. I think I’ve been up about six or seven times since living in Tennessee. If I were in Florida I had this small bench near the fort in St. Augustine that was just the most calming place overlooking the bay (In the picture above). I loved that spot and always thought of it as my thinking space.

I guess in many ways you can call this month the “rebirth” as I have gotten a new job, no longer go to school, and started thinking what comes next. I love that everything is slowly falling into place as I move on and learn more than I have in the last two years. I enjoy the new routine, but I have to admit that I do ask myself “What does it all mean?” I guess like every other twenty something with little to no direction you try to wonder why we do all the things we do. In the end, is it just to live the life you wanted? Making your own dreams come true is like a giant race with time. Time is always against us as we try for bigger and better things. I decided a few months ago to start my own small business to get a sense of what it is like to have something that I can truly call my own. It’s slowly getting ready for a premiere launch and like most “kids” who have never had their own business- I tend to see a lot of gray area as far as how to actually run the business. There is so much to learn from the legality of the work to how a client list grows. All these things that don’t seem to have very clear answers. While that is a side project I am working a full time job in television five days a week and I’m enjoying the change of pace. I also work my hotel gig one day a week for extra cash that I can use towards my business. All these things have made for a pretty jam packed month, but I’m constantly looking for the next thing and where it leads next. I’m really not a live in the moment kind of person and I think it’s funny that many people want to do more of that- I can’t sit and wait- no one can really, who is trying to fulfill so much in so little amount of time. I work diligently to get ahead and try even harder to find outlets that allow for creativity. I think that is what I want most from a career, somewhere I can have the creative voice that can lead to a great vision. Life at times feels so tumultuous yet mundane that you may forget that the reason anything matters is because we need it to.

-EC

I finally have a website design for my new website and I’m really looking forward to launching my own media marketing on-line company that will focus on generating business and creating some leads in local markets. I love media for all the reasons everyone else does, but I also like the idea of creating communities with like minded business owners.  I’m really excited about finally getting a launch up and running- it has been some time in the making, but I think I’m finally ready.  I usually don’t get far in these crazy ideas, but I’m really more focused or at least I think I feel that way.  Since graduating in May I have had doubts of where my life is going as far as what gives it meaning.  When days bleed into each other and there is no time to allow your creative voice to be heard, well that is when I feel the most out of control.  I gain control from having a creative and artistic voice.  I still believe that design is what allows us to reach a higher level of feeling.  I think that “loving” what you do is still very important to me.  I can’t say that I’m a 100% sure if this is just another one of my many pick them up and leave them ideas, but I’m willing to take the risk to see where things go.  I work six days a week and this type of schedule doesn’t leave much time for dreaming, I dream because I can’t do, but I also dream because I want to be. I want to be more than I am, but who doesn’t.  I feel like it saddens me that I can’t help out the web series my friend was creating, but sadly my schedule can never really sync with those.  I hate to let it go, but I’m excited to see where it goes- Its really fun watching people do what they love.  I want to find what I love before its too late to just say- “nothing”

It seems as quickly as the season changes the more I tend to abandon this blog. I think its the will to write or to feel that your life is important enough to have something to say. I really enjoy writing, but I guess I have so much going on that I just don't "feel" the need. Today I decided to update the design of the blog and I plan to write about my new business venture and the creative process to get it off the ground. Life has been extremely open lately with no direction in sight so here is to the future and documenting it like a true social entity. I hope to write at least one entry a week and try to keep things fresh. When I look back on this blog when I'm like seventy I want to feel that yeah, "Life was interesting."