Fall is just right around the corner and with the cooler weather also comes the start of classes, deadlines, and late hour studying.  I’m very happy to change up the Summer routine and look forward to running around town more.  Here are the goals for the next four months and to a very nice future.

Goal 1:  Make all A’s again this semester!  Since going back to college I have been able to keep a perfect straight A average that has allowed me to be more confident and focused on achieving bigger goals.  My classes are more interesting this time around and I hope to get more hands on projects started.

Goal 2:  Intern, Intern, Intern-  A career must start somewhere and internships are where its at.  I’m moving most of my focus into the Advertising and Marketing fields that will allow me to plan future goals for firms that need upstarts.  My ideal job will be as an account manager or market research analyst. These jobs are creative and a little more accessible than what I wanted in TV Production.  I do still love my HD cameras though, I will definitely miss the studio, but I’m more business than technical.

Goal 3:  Refocus my attention back to the art.  I love to write, read, and discuss art- but lately I’ve been more focused on watching TV and seeing whatever movie my DVR has decided to record.  I really enjoy the art scene and my town has a great art scene that I have not been taking advantage of.  I also want to work a little more on refocusing my portfolio proposal for next year. 

Goal 4:  Deciding where the future leads next.  I’m not sure where life is heading or what it means for me, but I have really been enjoying thinking of all the possibilities.  I know I want to move to a new city where there will be more opportunity and allow myself to open up my life.  I also want to feel in control- something I have lacked for a while now.  I think I was just too busy going with the flow. 

So these are the goals at the moment and my birthday is right around the corner so its time to move forward and up.

Pray for yourself.  Pray for Someone else.  Have hope in your Savoir.  Have hope in your heart.  There are times of great pain and injustice, but always hold your head up high.  Look to the sky and feel his warmth.  You can feel the love everywhere you look, from the trees, dirt, and air you breath.  It’s a beautiful light that shines on warm summer days.  Your soul, Your energy is absolute.  Your heart is full.  Your life is meaning.  You are important, but mostly you are loved.  I am sorry that you have to feel this way.  I am sorry for everything you are put through today and each day.  I can’t help in a way that I know I can.  Know your strength and fight the best fight of your life.  There are no answers that I can give.  There are no choices that I can make.  Your life moves on its own path.  I can’t heal your wounds, but I can love.  Know that in your life that you will always be loved no matter what may come.

Two mothers stand on the edge. 

Snow falls seemingly shallow as life breathes beneath the surface.

One mother away from her child so far and distant.

One mother so wrought through a life of hard existence.

An opportunity opens to free their minds.  To free their hearts.

A perilous journey awaits through the dark.

They must travel and unravel their emotional connections.

They must not hear or fear.

One mother mourns her husbands passing.

One mother mourns her husbands vanishing.

Both need to survive in a world unfair with lies.

Break the law and travel they must.

Across a river so frozen and lost.

What they find is a precious feeling.

A life neither thought they would be living.

 

You say you love me.

You drink me in.

You don’t care for me.

You care all about me.

You hold me close.

You push me away.

You hate my music.

You love my sound.

Into recklessness we fall.

Into hope we rejoice.

Into void we fill.

You say you love me.

You say you don’t.

This week has been very eventful…just with how busy everything has been.  I’m getting ready to go back to class and I think I will enjoy the new schedule.  This is the semester for big decisions and growing.  I can’t even begin to think how in the world everything will work out and I guess that is where the exciting comes in.  On a much lighter note it is time for the fall season to begin on TV and that means some major catching up on all shows, so glad that DVR was invented.  If you haven’t been watching Mad Men then you have to start ASAP!  There is so much going on- We are three weeks in, so grab your handy dandy remote and get to OnDemand.  TrueBlood is almost over, but this season has been amazing- I would say just as good as season 2.  On the  line up for September we have House, Fringe, Parenthood, Weeds, and much more.  I don’t think that I will do a radio show this year mainly because I want to work more on my communication practicum.  That might be what gets me in- I also found this internship at the Chattanooga Chamber of Commerce that would great.  So much on my plate for the next few months- The summer was great.  White water rafting is just right around the corner! I’m very excited- for my Birthday I want to go sky diving, but I have to say that has been a dream for the last six years.  I think I am definitely too scared to ever make that a realization, lol. 

I think I’m most excited about Fall being just around the corner.  This 100+ heat has been a real kill joy.  I love fall and getting a chance to be around cool days.  It would be awesome to maybe even have some time to go hiking or just see some nature stuff.  I’m not sure what is ahead, but I just want to go be independent and free. I really hope good things are around the corner. 

A light from within shines so bright.  It fuses your core and breaks your plight.  Your sadness is gone, but is not forgotten.  You are success, you are enlightened.  The light is pure as winter snow falling gracefully upon our shore.  Fear nothing, love all, remember hope and forget the fall.  Remember what you said, remember what you meant- the light follows, the light enthralls.  You dream of pure white snow falling in the fall.  You dream of a light so evocative and tall.  You are special because you are.  You are love in the purist form of all.  Don’t forget to see the light, don’t forget to fear no dark.  Remember you are the brightest light of all.  

I am worn down.

I am nothing in this space.

I feel empty.

There is a void in this world.

I came in as an empty vessel eager for knowledge.

I know so little.

I don’t understand joy.

The emotions run deep as they run wide.

In silence I find no clarity.

There is light though small and dim.

There is hope though fragile.

You may have it all.

You may not.

Don’t fear and trust that everything will be alright.

In an instant…I am now.

I am here.

I am life.