There is a time when you don’t have to feel anything whether it be happiness or sadness. The clock is stopped and minutes to the end of a day are no longer counting down. The air is dead and the light dim. When you feel absolutely nothing there are no memories, thoughts, or ideas running raptly through your mind. Though you may be empty there is no pain or fear of an unknown future or fading past. What it is- is hard to explain. What you feel is not something tangible or real. I suspect that the moments before are hectic and loud with music and sound rampaging through the air in momentous abundance. After though there is nothing. An empty space to fill the void left by all the bombastic noise. These moments may happen when you least expect them. They just occur like a solar flare lighting up the sky in a rampant violent burst of light- then quickly fizzle. In these moments you may think to yourself how can I handle a “nothing” that I have never felt before. We don’t always understand the meaning of silence. Being alone with nothing to keep your mind occupied. As the morning sun beats heavily down on your car and you get in exhausted from the heat- it can happen then. You sit in your car and the noise, the feelings- everything just goes away. Time stops and you are no longer tied to the binding of your natural life. You are more than your surroundings..you are more than your understanding. You are in a word, nothing. As quickly as it came it will go. Your life will flood with all the familiar as your thoughts fill your head. As if it had never occurd. As if it never mattered. Yes, that is what it feels like- like nothing and everything. When time just stops.
