Tonight, I was reading articles that explained how to get into the business of television and film. It feels like a daunting task and I’m not exactly sure how I can have a voice in a world that seems steep with competition and corporate networking. Every single piece I read states that you have to be willing to work 12hr days in an internship position, which by themselves are hard enough to come by. I don’t mind working…I can work seven days a week and devote my life to getting somewhere, but I have no idea how to get an internship, a true internship working in “producing” 
on air. There are many people who just network themselves in by who they know or go to specialized film schools that are expensive. I really don’t have these options, I have been to Channel 9 and PBS networks, they are great but really don’t have the resources to help someone create working content. I really want to go to a film school like the Brooks Institute or NY Film academy, but realistically I need to find an area where I can start actually working in my field. I don’t want life to just pass me by why I try to figure out what to do. I want to be dynamic in an industry that I have some passion for. On average a producer starts out with a 70,000 a year salary, but once you are established most see 80,000 and higher. Once you can achieve a level of success that the industry notices then you can live the life you want. Learning production means that I could always be a professor at a Film school like Central Florida or Brooks. I think I have this fear that I will be 45 and still searching for who I want to be. I don’t have regrets in my life because I haven’t done anything that I would change, I have always been true to myself and my beliefs. I never understood what “success” meant growing up. I just knew that if you work hard that you don’t lose the job and you can keep on surviving. How do people do it? Is it a question of confidence and having a strong sense of who you are? Is it something reserved for the truly gifted and only small percentage of important people? I look at the stories of people who come from living without a whole lot and really accomplishing goals they set out for themselves and I’m taken back on how they found a way to realize a dream. I’m not sure why I feel this way, I know I can do it, but I don’t know how.
-ECo.
